I've been thinking a lot lately. Not just thoughts of my financial situations and things going on around me, but more importantly thoughts of spiritual matters. I can't always put a word to what I'm thinking, but I feel it has something to do with if I'm where God wants me to be and if I'm pleasing Him. I often think about my future and get discouraged at times. Honestly, I have no idea where I'm going. I don't want to spend my life doing concrete work, it just doesn't mean anything to me. I want to please God in what I do, but I'm fearful that at the end I'll have threw away my opportunities.
"I know I screw things up all the time, but God please guide me where You want me to be. I understand that life is meaningless without purpose that comes from You. I understand that I can do absolutely nothing without Your power. If You do not lead me where You want me to be, my life will have been a waste. Yet, I trust You with my life. Even though I have these feelings and these thoughts, I stand on Your promises. You are a good God, and You say that I can trust Your character. Don't forget Your servant."